Shalom beloveds
I’ve been viewing discussions and reading opinions on the movement “MY BODY MY CHOICE” and it simply breaks my heart to know that people still think that killing an unborn child is ok. Don’t get me wrong, I am not sitting on the sidelines judging anyone. In fact, I am the last person to judge. But better yet, I am one of the many people concerned for not only the unborn child but also for the wellbeing of the mother, because I too have been there. So I thought it’s only fitting that I share my own story here.
On the 12th December 2012 I had an abortion. It’s been over 10 years and I still regret that decision! I became a Christ follower and believer in 2017, but I still think back to that decision: it was one of the biggest (if not the biggest) mistake I made thus far. I still get reminders about it and the other day I was a watching “Because of Gracia” and I was triggered. I was reminded of the day I walked into the abortion clinic right before having the abortion- those first few moments (side note: I cried after that triggering scene). At the last few days of my pregnancy I justified having an abortion, pitching the idea to myself that it’s ok, but before this I was completely against abortion. Truth is I was scared, I didn’t know what to do and I was dating the father of our baby for only 5 months when I fell pregnant. I’m also sharing this because the story of my abortion is part of my testimony, or rather the biggest reason thereof. Every year when I share my story (on its anniversary date) I get a message from at least one other woman saying: “I also had an abortion and your story inspires me to find forgiveness and strength in God” or “I was ashamed and I didn’t know if I could share it publicly”, etc. etc.
Why I’m mainly sharing this is because women (and girls) need to know that abortion is not ok. It is not right! Standing with the belief of “my body my choice” means saying that your life means so much more than another person’s life and that you are willing to murder an innocent being to protect your own. It is taking the right of life from that child and snatching away their freedom of choice. I have always been against the murder of another living creature BUT I am not perfect and I made a mistake and I am reminded by the death of my first baby every now and again. We fool ourselves into thinking that it’s ok. But it’s not part of God’s plan. Abortion was never part of his plan. I also understand that there are circumstances that cause females to have forced abortions or even circumstances that allow for unwanted pregnancies. So if you find yourself in this kind of situation, please seek help every chance you get. But if you feel you absolutely can’t keep your baby, rather give your baby up for adoption (the right way). I promise you, giving up a child for adoption is much better than an abortion.
Lastly, I’d like to encourage each and every female out there facing the decision of abortion (and even the fathers included) that God does not want that for anyone because it brings too much heartache, pain and evil into our lives and into the world. He knits each living being into existence in the womb of our mothers and he knows us intimately. He knows our paths and destinies before our first breaths and sights. So when we take away the right of life from a fetus, we take away their voice and their right of existence. How would we feel if our own mothers did that to us? Let us not turn our wombs into tombs. I hope at least 1 pregnant female out there reads this and runs to Jesus whilst keeping and protecting the little one in their womb, because only God can make and take away a life… I had an abortion and I still mourn the death of my baby.
Thank you for reading, till next time…
Shalom & blessings in Yeshua
